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blogs are supposed to be an outsource, right? a place to vent emotions or to just bitch about your problems, which i guess are both the same things.
then why haven't i been taking advantage of this online diary? i know, it helps. but, i don't do it.

it's 11:00 on a sunday night. it's 30 degrees outside *silently prays for snow*, my christmas lights are on, millions of santa's are staring me in the face, and i'm not tired at all. it should be a great time, right? yeah, not right.

i woke up at 12:00, had some cereal. 1 cup of special k strawberries, 1/2 a cup of 2% milk, and a banana. good. then i had a subway sandwich. good. then i had a danish and slice of pizza from live from new york. not good.
being not tired, i channel surfed. nothing on cable, so i checked my list of recorded shows and decided on last week's episode of the biggest loser. i clicked the play button and as i was chomping down another bowl of cereal i heard "what have you done today, to make you feel proud" and i almost started crying.
what have i done to make me feel proud? absolutely nothing. there is not one thing in the past month that i've done that is applause worthy.

since halloween i've gained 10 pounds, which pushes me back to 40 pounds lost. and right at 200. not only is that disgusting, but it kills me. i have absolutely no idea what is happening.
i blame it on pms (and this month may have been an exception) but that's not true (duh).

so, i guess long story short. i'm back full force to working and writing on this bad boy.
i am going to make it an everyday thing.

the best post ever.

i know it's been a while, but believe me, it's worth the weight.


190.6.

do we all know what that means?

I'VE LOST FIFTY POUNDS.

:)

oh my god, i lud dis song!

today we (i.e. me, my mom, my aunt, and my grandma) went to sushi to celebrate my weight loss!
nothing makes me feel as good as a klamath roll.
yum.

new post! new post!

one more pound down!
bringing the total to 42 pounds gone!

i can't believe it!
and only 63 more pounds to go!

i just want to be skinny!
not thin, s-k-i-n-n-y!

soon soon soon!

solid.

still at 199.
no ups, no downs.
yay.

teehee!

so...i feel UHHH-MAZING.
just thought i'd let you all know.
:)

hip hip hoorYAY.

so.....

199.5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. i'm so effing excited. i have now officially lost 41 pounds...and am out of the 200's. i do not ever want to go back there....EVER!
ahhhhhhhhhhh!
and today was an all around good day.
went to town, garage saleing!
scored two sweaters, six necklaces, four pairs of earrings, a brooch, and some beads for (drum roll, please)...$7.00.

good days are a rollin'.
and i do not want them to stop.

until..sometime soon.